my position and reasons for my determinism

Just to follow up with my promise to actively earn my own honest livelihood, also earning my family's respect, faith and trust for that matter...  or should I say 'restore' instead?  

So I forward my recent correspondence with Richard.  I point out that I directly asked for paid work. 

All I ask of you now is that you try to appreciate and respect the difficult of my ambition and genuinely pray I have the needed courage and intelligence to complete my objectives.  Seriously, take a few seconds to pray for me...  

Just to rebuttal my position and reasons for my determinism, please read this and respond. 

Google Translate Quiz [1] 

Que somos una familia racionalmente competente, inteligente liberal con mayor moral valores, empatía y compasión con grandes grandes corazones honestos. 

traductor Google CUESTIONARIO número uno mamá, responder a todos [YAY!] si usted tradujo con éxito este. 

Muchas gracias. te amo mamá :)

Please let's not let something as trivial as a few bucks disrupt our harmony and steal our precious time together.  I actually do have a competent plan here to support myself, I implore you both to trust me this time, genuinely encourage me regularly, and lend a modest amount of financial support at this "crucial career defining point of my life".  I know I've said this before, and I wound up failing miserably time after time.  I recognize that I've been delusional and grandiose in the past and that has thoroughly shaken your faith in me.  

You have every right to doubt me this time and refuse support, possibly jeopardizing the outcome, repeating the pattern of failure and then repeat...  I see that as a completely normal physiological response, including your subsequence negative reaction and default potential of creating a dangerous self fulling prophecy.  

However I strive to personally evolve beyond that paradigm of negative thoughts process, and pessimistic outlook in favor of the clearly advantageous paradigm of passionate dedication, relentless perseverance and faith that god has a plan for me, and that it might look something like I envision it.  That being the life I illustrated in my Article "My 5 Little Lifelong Goals: Importance of Goal Writing"

My POINT is that Paul either admittedly disagrees with my projected odds of success, thus making the need for an ignominious job moot.   That must mean that Paul doesn't see/understand 

that I can't, don't want to, apparently not capable of giving my attention and love to do anything that I don't either benefit from and/or believe in the end cause...

Most important reason that I am terrified about the prospect of being forced to divert my focus to finding, applying and then working some crappy job is that BECAUSE I AM CONSCIENTIOUSLY AGAINST the greedy capitalist concept of paying people as little as possible so that the elites can be as profitable as possible enriching themselves to the detriment of the other 99 percent of civilization. 

After a tremendous amount of introspection of this conventional method of wealth distribution, I have determined that this capital system is not only unsustainable and immoral, but also inhuman and extremely dangerous to the human psyche.  Logically after making this determination that capitalism is evil and unsuitable, I made the permanent personal determination and vow not to contribute or participate in this barbaric system unless absolutely necessary or if I should have alternative motives. My feelings about capitalism and my decision to not be a part of it has been greatly reinforced by the overwhelming amount of scientific and statistical evidence supporting my favor.  This is who I have become and I am proud of it.  I fear that the older generation of people have been too thoroughly brainwashed and disillusioned from the decades of media conglomerate propaganda that you've been subjected to, that the damage done is irreversible.  Understanding this and accepting that the mass majority of the people in the world will never understand it, no matter how hard I try to teach them, is part of the double edge sword of personal enlightenment.  I have faith that you have the capacity and desire to transcend obvious stupidity. 

I am grateful that I, being born at the beginning of the information generation, that I may be young enough to be part of the first generation to begin the struggle to break free from outdated conventions and transcend into the next era of humanity.  That is my vision of the future, and I am excited to be part of it. 

Just be thankful that your kin is not just another sheep.    

- David W Coon

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From: david
To: richard
Subject: Weekend Update and What's Next
Date: Fri, 3 Oct 2014 18:38:07 -0400

Greetings Richard, 

Quick update:  I continue my progress learning and managing Joomla.  I have now tested just about every option, module and function that I could find.  I am feeling much more comfortable with the whole process now.  I do have a ton of questions.  

I am a slow methodical learning, my goal is to truly comprehend html code structure/potential while learning Joomla CMS from the ground up.  With my dedication and passion for this stuff, I can learn most of what I need primarily by myself from online forums and the such.  I greatly appreciate your guidance and mentorship, I wouldn't be this far without you. (I don't want to waste your time, so I strive to save only the most pertinent questions for you.)  Anyways, now I'm really starting to see the big picture and i couldn't be more thrilled...

So what's next?  I have USMC Drill weekend this Sat and Sunday, which is good because I plan to hand out a dozen business cards or so to my fellow marines.  I'm sure I'll generate some sales from my warm market down the road.  

This is why I've been focusing all my energy on really grasping the groundwork for this "Beyond web development: message creating" stuff.  I am wholly in tune with f (nt)'s philosophy. I aim to really hone my "html code crafting" as I call it.  Best of all the byproduct of my practice is my own showpiece website!  I am so excite about how my site /Clean has turned out.  

That said I will be back Monday ready for duty, enthusiastic to utilize my newfound skills.  How may I be of assistance to you Sir?  My short term goal is to make at least $500 by the end of the month (my family doesn't understand success if they don't see money).  I know that I need to bring in my own projects, and I'm confident that won't be a problem, but I know that is going to take some time...  Is there anything that I can make a few bucks helping you with in the meantime? 

This week I plan to finalize my first sales venture plan, continue my rigorous study of CMS and html.  I'd love to start tackling CSS this week, now that I am much more acquainted with the syntax of html.  I can be available anytime to webex with you.  I'm still very interested in shadowing you for brief lessons on more advanced techniques wherever possible that I won't be in the way.   

Okay, so one quick question...  While experimenting with the Administrator Module Manager, I goofed up and lost the Toolbar Menu that allows me to SAVE.  I've also seemed to have messed up the Control Panel screen and other options on the backend. I understand what's going on here, and I think the only way to fix it is to reload the template... Right?  Which I don't know how to do.  I also need a review on how to access the FTP, database, etc...  Can you help me fix it? lol 

Sincerest Thanks,

- DW Coon