Should I turn myself in?

Should I go to State Prison for Marijuana?

I have a philosophical conundrum whether I should turn myself in to police for MARIJUANA!!! And should I be in prison until marijuana is legal federally in the USA!!??

I live in New York, which as of April 2014, it looks like it is going to be at least 5 more years before medical marijuana is legal, let alone recreational marijuana is legal.

FOR THE RECORD, I believe that Marijuana has tremendous medicinal value, however I am SERIOUSLY AGAINST MEDICAL MARIJUANA! It should not be up to bureaucrats or subjective doctor’s opinions what or how much marijuana (whether it be medicine or not) individual needs. THIS IS A MATTER OF INDIVIDUAL LIBERTY, FREEDOM AND (as the US Constitution States ) = PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS. Just like gay marriage, women’s rights or civil rights, WHO ARE YOU to say what I can and cannot do!!

Why should some straight-edge conservative IGNORANT bureaucrat decide what is best for me!!! Who are you to judge me!! You don't know me! You don't know what I have been through. At the very least I have severed my country in a time of war. Now all I am asking for is the freedom to do what is best for me.

I have a special medical condition (ADD/ADHA/ADHBD) that smoking a tiny bit ( I stress A SMALL AMOUNT OF QUALITY MARIJUANA) maybe once a week or a few times a month SERIOUSLY HELPS ME!!!....

I am not a drug fiend, I am not a Pot Head, I am not some hopeless loser stoner that just wants to be lazy and be high, I am not a loser dope drug addict that just wants to get high!!!!

If this is what you think that all marijuana users are like, YOU ARE IGNORANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You might want to educate yourself. Because most pot smokers are honest tax paying citizens, just like the majority of the African American Community, and just like the Gay Community that just wants to have the right to marry who they love, just like the minimum wage community that is just asking for a fair wage, and just like female workforce community that is just asking for equal pay for equal work. I am a proud and honest United States Citizens, that has honorably severed his country in the time of war... And all I am asking is not to be prosecuted and persecuted for my honest attempt to make myself feel better. Please allow me the dignity to define myself. MARIJUANA is a SOCIAL RIGHT, it is not a means of social discrimination!!!

I can't tell you how many job opportunities I have lost because of this BULLSHIT DISCRIMINATION! It is simply not fair! I have been denied the honest opportunity to work because of my personal mental affliction that is honestly best cured by a tiny bit of weed... This has caused me become jobless, homeless, self-esteemless, hopeless, bankrupt and suicidal.

I am an intelligent adult. I should be able to make my own decisions as to what is best for me. I am also a US Marine Corps War Veteran ( Afghanistan OEF 2009) and a College Graduate (State University of New York at Albany with a major in Sociology, and a minor in Philosophy, Psychology and Social Statistics).

I may have PTSD from fighting the war in Afghanistan, or I may have had ADD/ADHD prior to joining the military. Whatever the case, I have a serious mental problem. I require stimulus medication (Ritalin or Concerta= time released Ritalin) to function optimally (or rather to function normally).

Honestly, this medication makes me want to live!! Without it, I feel sleepy, lazy, lethargic and I have very little desire to do the things that I love to do. ( * I greatly enjoy studying foreign languages, practicing classical piano and learning as much as I can about the natural sciences, mainly physics, biology and chemistry) if that is not statement enough, please allow me to elaborate further....

With the right medication (which I believe to be a combination of Ritalin and Marijuana), I am able to function as a highly effective member of society. I am able to contribute to society in a meaningful and useful way. I am able to produce useful results from diligent hard work. Most importantly, I am able to go to sleep at night knowing that I did something useful and meaningful.... Even more importantly, this combination of medicine makes me happy...

Doing something meaningful for myself, my family and society is quite possibly the most important thing in my life... Without my vital medication, I simply fail to accomplish anything practical and useful.

I often wish I didn't need medication to work and function normally. But the FACT of the matter is that I do need medication. This medication greatly improves the quality of my life. Either I take the medication (the stimulate and the marijuana) and live a higher quality of life or I don't and live a lower quality of life. Obviously the right choice is simple. I would rather be a meaningful contributor to society then be a lethargic waste of space (which is how I am without the medication).

This is a personal conclusion that I made years ago (when I was about 11, when I first started the stimulate medication), I decided to be all that I could be and contribute all that I could. Unfortunately, because MARIJUANA as of April 2014 is still illegal, I have suffered grave consequences of my decision....

I have personally experienced that smoking a very small amount of quality marijuana has drastically helped me tremendously. After smoking a small amount of high-grade marijuana (ones a week or less) something truly magical happens. My mind becomes from free momentarily from the million miles a second thought-race that burdens me normally. I am able to feel a moment of peace and tranquility from the constant speed race that my mind constantly torturers me with....

I decided that my right for the medicinal value of marijuana was something worth fighting for!! I understand that I will have to suffer because of the ASS-BACKWARDS BULLSHIT political climate that I was born into that currently holds the FALSE belief the MARIJUANA is some sort of evil demon drug that holds no medicinal value what-so-ever. I may be years ahead of my time, and I understand that I am on the wrong side of a futile political battle. But this is something that I honestly believe in.

I am willing to go to jail as a martyr for my beliefs. I would rather the state pay for my pitiful useless existence in state prison (as is does with dope users) rather than I be a useful honest contributor to society with lawful and unrestricted access to the medication that I need to be a honest useful contributor to society.

Honestly as a Sociology Major in College, it seems WAY more useful to society to do it my way... And allow me access to the drugs that I need than be a useless burden on society and waste my life in state prison... But who am I to make that decision? I don't make the laws, I just try my best to follow the ones that make senses...

Sometimes I wonder why I even bothered going to school to get educated about the world in the first place, it doesn't seem to matter anyways....

So I would rather be in state prison than be a victim of an oppressive ignorant (RACIST I might add) government on the outside. Until my country decides to do the right thing and allows honest educated citizens like me to have access the the medication that I need to be a useful productive citizens, I guess I would rather rot in jail. America, You have failed! If you don't correct yourself soon, you will be overtaken by China or who knows who else.

Now is the time to change. Using Science as a guide, we have the knowledge and wisdom to do what is right. Don't let politics stand in the way. The United States of America has the wisdom and know how to be a world leader.... It is the corrupt politicians standing in the way of our success. Change now, for fall forever. The choice is ours.