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Sunday, February 24, 2013

A Conversation about the modern world...

This is an excerp from a converstaion with my best friend covering subjects revelaent to the modern science

me 3:58 PM
baby, I dont know how to say this, but im having a hard time grasping the purpose of reality
i can't help but to continue to learn more about the true nature of reality, but some topics, like the ecomonics systems or the foundation of inequality in society, the more i learn, the more terrifying the nature of reality seems to be, i wish i could go back to blissful ignorance

4:00 PM

?? What r you trying to say exactly?

me 4:06 PM

certain things like science and technology (and of course you make me happy) keep me excited and hopeful for the future, but other things, like the fact that i must accept injustice and unfairness, and i have to accept living in a sick world, and the fact that there really isn't anything i can do about it, i just have to accept it, really breaks my emotional conscious.
i really dont know how to explain, and the only modern day solution seems to Prozac, which clearly doesnt actually fix anything... this solution tremendously disturbs me...
this is just a little of what's on my mind, i wish i could stop thinking about it, and i wish i could just relax and enjoy myself, but im obsessed with learning more i have an overwhelming desire to try to help and fix the problems...but nobody seems to really care, or even understand that such problems exist in the first place....

4:08 PM

Pff wtf. Prozac . I visitef julian yesterday. He has change. He stops codein for another drug . Prozac.

Its really not a good drug. I can see the side effect and how he behaves by taking prozac

me 4:13 PM

thats just about the only think some people can do... they must be "dumbed down" or "numbed chemically" with prozac, if they have any chance to fitting into an otherwise sick society
i honestly dont believe that that Julian is the problem, its society that is the problem. people like him could be perfectly normal humans, but they succumb to the corruption of society, and then they need this drug to "make them stop thinking so much" i see major disaster in the future of mankind if all continues as is...
oh how i wish sometimes i could just be another one of the happy sheep, blissfully ignorance that im on my way to the slaughter....

4:17 PM

I think that the society is not the only problem. And that its because hes too weak abd dont want to fight and see the real reality that he needs prozac. Thats not because you are happy and live without prozac that you are a sheep bliss and ignorant A lot of the people you call sheep fight and survive to make their live happy and confortabl. And that doesnt mean that they are stupid

me:

but individual's strengths and weaknesses are most of the time a product of their enviroment, and if that enviroment is toxic to start with, then a lot of people have no hope from the start to prosper and live happy lives, in other words, a lot of people on earth are doomed to failure, through no fault of their own

4:19 PM

That is people who have to take drugs that are disconnect of the reality. Because of the effect of the drug

Wtf environment is not toxic. If you feel that thats you who make it toxic! Stop thinking that. Understand that its not toxic. And everybody can have his own place if he wants. And no need to be a sheep gor that!

You seems very narrow minded to think stuff like that. I need a minute to take the ipad. My cellphone is not nice for conversation on gtalk me: i just dont believe that in 2013, humanity should still be living in the "every man for himself" paradigm. that seems a bit barbaric to me... Not the humanity but a little part only do that

me:
oh cool so anyways can we talk about something else, something more pleasent then the doomed future of humanity... which isn't excatly what i believe btw, i am a uber optimist you know, i do have faith in humanity

4:34 PM

If you have faith in humanity why you always tallk about humanity so badly

me:
im just talking about how i feel about some of what im learning. and what i see in the world

4:38 PM

Are u taking prozac now?

me: 4:39 PM
i understand, that the internet is sometimes a major echo chamber, easy to find whatever you what to hear, because no matter what you believe, the internet has someone else out there that feels the same way, doesnt matter if its right or wrong....no, im stone cold sober right now, and i dont take prozac, the only drug i really want to take is Ritalin, which i have difficulties getting....

4:40 PM

I dont understand what you wanne say with internet. Ok

me:
echo chamber, repeating back whatever you say or want to find/hear
the truth is out there, littered among tons of false garbage of course
i think it takes a tremendous amount of real intelligence to filter out the truth from the lies

4:43 PM

Thats wont change your life to know that. You cant know and cant imagine lies

me:
not to mention the purposeful proHAHAgranda ( propaganda) that is out there to deliberately persuade you to believe lies

4:46 PM

Just pay attetion around you . Its not possible to know the truth everywhere around the world

But everybody know that media lr government lie. And what?!!!

me: :)
i love you....., you are so wise, and i truly value your insight,
you have a great way to put things into perspective for me...

4:47 PM

That dont change life. For the major stuff you can do nothing

me: 4:48 PM
you are absultely right, i need to focus on my life around me, thats all little o'l me can do..
am i a dreamer to think i can make a difference in the world?

4:50 PM

You just can try to pay attention for ome things thats all. As pesticide, or jean made in china by children

People who are dreamer act around them and do what they can to live better in harmony with what they think, believe and know about the world . They dont try to know all lies around the world. That just not useful

Except to make you sick

me: 4:52 PM
i believe in truth, love and oneness

4:59 PM

You can only contribute to improve world. Became a president if you want to change world.

But even a president cant, I believe in the nature, Love and Science. Oh wherevare u

me: 5:00 PM
me: i wont allow myself to be corrupted, and i believe i understand that corrupts people, and i am staying clear of those influences, i desire to see a world where fairness and justice prevails, where laws are based in secular morality, science, compassion and truth

5:01 PM

And youre not the only one

me:
merci, that is encouraging.

5:03 PM

What is encouraging?

me: 5:06 PM
because i cant do it alone. that you remind me that im not the only one
What you think about?! Dont be selfish. Lots of people are not blind and want the same things
like the people that made the documentaries Zeitgeist: Moving Forward and Zeitgeist Addendum

5:12 PM me: have you ever heard of Corporatocracy? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Corporatocracy

revised 3/5/2013 posted on dwcoon's blog

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

I see, I am, I have and I will

I see life as challenging and exciting instead of overwhelming. I am interested in personal growth and always improving and learning. I see my future as an improvement upon my past, rather than a continuation of the same.

I am starting to use my energy more effectively. Just getting by isn’t good enough anymore. I care about doing a good job — perhaps even the best. I think about time management and productivity and getting organized, the things that weren’t so important to me in the past. I am really developing willpower and self-discipline. My consciousness is becoming more organized and disciplined.

I have awaken to the possibilities of living proactively. I've become intelligent, honest and competent, and now I want to put my abilities to good use. I am setting goals and achieving success.

. If something isn’t right about my life, I'm going to define my desired outcome and change it. I am starting to see the big picture of my life more clearly.

I will transcend the emotional aspects of the lower levels of consciousness and begin to think clearly and rationally. I believe in science and secular morality. I will become capable of using my reasoning abilities and hard earned skills to the fullest extent. I now have the discipline and the proactivity to fully exploit my natural abilities. I've reached the point where I've said,

“Wow. I can do all this stuff, and I know I must put it to good use. So what’s the best use of my talents?” I have taken a look around the world and I see what needs changing and improving, and I'm starting to making meaningful contributions.

It’s obvious that most people never realize anything like this, nor do they care to in their entire lives.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Real Drug Recovery

Autobiographical History of dwcoon v2.01

My Personal Story and Life Experiences -
A valuable case study of mental disorder diagnosis, medicine and drugs,
and the coming of age of modern day psychology.

1/3/2013, revised 3/5/13

This Autobiography was written exclusively for The DRUG WAR STATISTICS website, as a personal story to strengthen the ever growing popular view of Global Drug Law Reform.

sites.google.com/site/drugwarstatistics/real-drug-recovery

This is an important issue for me for many reasons. As a sociologist, I recognize drug abuse as a real social problem that hurts millions of good people and their innocent families and friends. I have seen people close to me spiral out of control with drug and alcohol addiction. And I have had close friends and family members be destroyed by the state 'justice' correctional system as a result of zero tolerance drug laws. All this in addition to the fact that I come from a family that has a history alcoholism. I have struggled myself with drinking and addiction issues, and I have been down the long road to recovery. I spent 16 days in county jail for my third DWI, I have lost countless friends and job opportunities as a result of drinking, and I even spent 30 days in SARRPT (Substance Abuse Residential Rehabilitation Transition Program) at a VA Medical Center (Hospital). Even though this was completely the wrong kind of program for me, as I was the only one there who hadn't done heroin. Still as a sociologist I learned so much about the VA, government drug treatment ideologies and just about the very worst of what unregulated street drugs can do to people. Being there did make me realize what I could become if I 'm not careful. I humbly admit that I am an alcoholic, and I will always have this dangerous demon inside of me.

Fortunately, as a result of my will to recover, and lucky for me I eventually realized that I didn't actually have it that bad. I confess, I half willingly wanted to go to the government sponsored rehab for the same reasons I wanted to join the US Marine Corp; to learn about my government from the inside. Not only did I major in sociology, but I have the selfless compassion to serve and help others in social work, I also took a huge interest in abnormal psychology and treating those suffering in need of help. Maybe also to understand myself better, or maybe because I have always be tremendously in Psychiatry as a potential career, mainly because I had so many friends that clearly needed professional help that was no where to be found. Psychiatry is the medical specialty devoted to the study, diagnosis, treatment, and prevention of mental disorders. Psychiatrists are also authorized to prescribe medicine (drugs), and conduct mental health evaluations. I have always wanted to prescribe medicine and provide quality comprehensive mental health counseling, as these were always things that I needed, that I felt I never got adequate care for. Primary because of the huge cost and puny amount of time and effort psychiatrist and doctors provide me when I was growing up.

The faulty healthcare system is partly to blame, while individual greedy doctors not caring enough also carries part of the blame too. But the main reason being was the pathetic archaic state that modern psychology was in prior to the 1990s. Drug addiction was considered a moral defect in one's character, alcoholism was a widely considered a personal choice of weak-minded individuals and homosexuals were classified as mentally ill. Thank God that modern science and technology finally debunked those horrible widespread ignorant medical beliefs. Modern neuroscience (science of the brain), enabled scientists to see and study the brain like never before with technology like MRIs (Magnetic resonance imaging). This launched psychology into a entirely new direction. No longer would the bogus, often prejudices diagnostics for the 20th century plague society. Now real diagnosis could be made, and the correct treatment could be given. Drug addiction and alcoholism finally started to be viewed and treated as a disease, no longer being the sole guilty fault of the unfortunate suffering patients, most of whom are poor minorities, victims themselves of their environment. And persecution of homosexual finally stopped, because as it turned out, there really wasn't anything wrong with them in the first place. The days of "conversation therapy" provided by untrained clergy and religious bigots as a cure for homosexuality were finally over for good.

As for me, growing up in the 1990s, I benefited greatly from new scientific understandings of mental health, and I was fortunate enough to get better and more accurate diagnosis of my own mental condition then any generation before me. When I was a young child, I was terribly hyper-active and impulsive. My wonderful caring mother, not being a medical doctor or a psychiatrist herself, and only wanting the best for me, took me to many different professionals hoping to find answers. As it turned out, I did have a neurological disorder, causing me to be hyper-active, making it difficulty for me to pay attention, seemingly short to non-existent attention span, delayed learning in reading and writing, and sometimes wild impulsive behavior. (This is of course completely normal behavior for some young boys). So finally with a diagnosis of Attention Deficit-Hyperactivity Disorder (ADD/ADHD) from multiple sources, after much deliberation about the controversial (relatively new) treatment option of stimulate medication, my mother started giving me a 5 mg Ritalin pill before school each day. And miraculously I started doing better in school. I being only in seventh grade at the time, had no idea what this medicine was or what it was doing to me, but I noticed a dramatic difference from the days I took the Ritalin and days that I did not. Days I took it, I was alert during math class, participated actively asked and answered questions and took good notes. Days that I did not take it, I pretty much feel asleep in class and woke up at the end when all the other students were leaving the classroom.

As time when on and I continued into high-school, this medicine became a subtle yet intricate part of my life. I never drank or did drugs of any kind, not even once all throughout high-school. I was a good straight-edge happy student. I got good grades, above average, but not straight As or anything. I had a few close friends, I was on the track & field team in the spring and ran cross-country on the high school JV team in the fall. Is it all because of this medicine? We can never know for sure, but one thing I am absolutely positive about is that this stimulate medication has helped me tremendously, and continues to help me to this very day. I plan to continue to take it for the foreseeable future, but probably not for the rest of my life and certainly not everyday.

Shortly before graduating from high school, I briefly seriously entertained the idea of joining the US Navy, instead of going to college first. My recruiter told me that the Navy would send me to school and take care of everything. All I had to do was deny and lie about everything involving ADD and ADHD, and pretend like there was nothing wrong with me what-so-ever. Oh, and I was told that I had to stop taking Ritalin... Now, there is some value in not accepting a medical doctor's diagnosis as truth, same as the harm it can bring to believe you have some ailment that doesn't really exist. Kind of like a self-fulfilling prophecy. Believing in a diagnosis as truth can directly or indirectly causes it to become true, by the very terms of the defined so-called ailment that you are told that you have. Thus the prophecy itself, due to positive feedback between belief and behavior, becomes reality. The same goes for denying the diagnosis in the first place.

The problem with this 'self-denial' is that some disorders and ailments are indeed real, and belief as to if it is real or not is totally irrelevant. And in my case, I have stacks of school notebooks that testify as proof that my disorder is in fact real. The proof is in the outcome, either I took the medicine and took good notes and learned or I didn't. It was not hard for me to see the results after years of trial and error. I ultimately told the Navy recruiter that it didn't make sense for me to go to school and not take my medicine, because I knew that I wouldn't do as well as I could, and that was a sacrifice I wasn't willing to make at that time in my life. I had far to much learning about the world to do. So off to college my Ritalin and I went.

I did not know what I wanted to major in the first few years at SUNY Albany, so I took most of my electives and general education required classes the first few years. The same exact situation occurred in college that happened in high-school. Days I took the stimulate medication, I was diligent and studious, and days I didn't I caught up on sleep during the hour and twenty minute class lectures. I almost never missed or skipped class, but there sure was a huge difference with and without the medicine. Looking back now, I do distinctly remember that class subject that I found particularly stimulating and interesting, I had no problem staying focused on and awake in. The subjects that excited me the most were writing & linguistics, classical & moral philosophy and critical thinking, abnormal psychology and treatment for such disorders, and social statistics. These subjects I would study and learn about for hours on end, no medicine needed. I really grew so much during these enlightening college years.

And so life went on. I remember drinking my first beer and smoking my first cigarette those first years at SUNY A. And slowly over a few years drinking became a common habit and pastime of mine. And then I discovered marijuana, I admit I love it right from the start. (much more about this later) However, I always felt bad about buying and smoking marijuana, because it was illegal, lumped in with all other illegal drugs like heroin and cocaine. Surely I thought that was for some good logical reason for this. (as it turned out, there wasn't, and fallacies like this seriously destroys the creditably of all laws! If these laws are a total farce, then what other laws also have no ground to stand on? John Stuart Mill and my rigorous study of moral philosophy would soon give me answers) Of course smoking weed was only an occasional treat for me, mainly because it wasn't all the readily accessible to me like alcohol was. And then came the real problem. I had trouble getting my Ritalin prescription filled on a regular basis. This was because in the United States, methylphenidate, the active ingredient in Ritalin, was classified as a Schedule II controlled substance, with high potential for abuse. This meant that my doctor back home, the general practitioner-medical doctor, not a psychiatrist mind you, the gent who has been writing my scripts since seventh grade, could not under New York State Controlled Substance Law, phone in my prescription to the local pharmacy. It could only be filled with the hand-written "doctor's note" I used to call it. And so I would be forced to travel all the way home each month just to get this little piece of paper.

This irritated me so much. Because I wasn't able to go home every month to get the prescription, I often had to just go without. Needless to say, I began to substitute my wonderful medicine, that made me happy and productive, for the only legal, culturally accepted alternative available, drinking alcohol... Drinking was always terrible unproductive, and often left me unhappy, miserable and hungover. Growing up I had always assumed the age old wisdom of the state and federal government to be true and correct, even though it didn't intrinsically make sense to me, I further assumed they must have reasons that I just didn't understand. I mean who was I to question the legitimacy of the law. I was only in my twenties, my government was 10 times older then me, they must have wisdom and knowledge beyond my young impressionable mind. The state allowed alcohol to be perfectly legal and readily available at every corner store, meanwhile my valuable medicine was right there at the pharmacy, but because I didn't have a doctor's note, I couldn't have it. No way, I thought, they must think that this guy (me) can't be trusted, even though he (I) has been taking this medicine for almost 10 years as of this time, still a official NYS prescription was required, each and every time, 12 months a year. And not to mention that marijuana must be really awful to be completely illegal. Weed must be just as bad as crystal meth and acid, seeing that they are all classified as 'illegal drugs'. They, the law makers and decision makers in the government really must know something that I didn't, because this doesn't make sense. So as I continued to drink in substitute of my medicine, I kept learning science, focusing on philosophy and psychology. It was around this time that I first learned about the real concept of "Liberty" from John Stuart Mill (1806 – 1873) the British philosopher and statesman years ahead of his time. I learned that the state's only just authority to limit a law abiding citizen's liberty should be based on the "harm principle". And that all drug laws are paternal in nature, being laws for your own good, because you are not smart enough to make decisions for your self. Drug laws violate the concept of liberty. And as a US Marine, having fought in war to defend such liberties, I am thoroughly disgusted and appalled that such laws are still on the books and enforced. Mill was a major influential contributor to social theory, political theory, and political economy. He has been called "the most influential English-speaking philosopher of the nineteenth century". He advocated for woman's equal rights more than 75 years before the suffrage movement began in America. His paper "On Liberty" forever change me and greatly influenced my thinking and feelings about my laws, my government's authority and my drug/medicine situation. Here I am, an intelligent, responsible adult, never been in any trouble in my life, and I cannot have access to my vital medicine. WTF!?

Here I would like to mention a few more details about my neurological disorder, "ADD", my family history of alcoholism and the so-called wisdom of the state. First I strongly believe that my father and mother's brothers both suffer from the same 'disorder' that I do, but them being born decades before me, they didn't have the privilege and advantage of the early '90s psychological analysis and medical diagnosis that I had. They too would have benefited tremendously from Ritalin, and their lives would have been much much different to say the least. My father might not have drank so much and would still have been married to my mother for example. And my uncle probably wouldn't have spent 3 years in prison for repeated DWIs. My father and uncle, both highly intelligent men, both succumbed to heavy drinking in an attempt to self-medicate themselves and I totally understand why. I have the same feeling. Something is 'wrong' in my head, and I just do not feel comfortable being sober all the time. This is not that same thing as depression or other similar problems, it is simply that my brain is stuck in over-drive all the time, and sometimes I need to take a break from myself. What other legal options are there? None! And this is out-right not fair, it is a clear violation of liberty. No one else in the world has the right to keep stimulate away from people who need or want them. And who really cares if people are smoking pot? To be frank, it is no one else's damn business. The government's role is to regulate and govern society, not to play parent or boss. If the drug laws were actually based on some higher morality for people's own good, because apparently all people must be to stupid to make decisions for themselves, (which this is not the case, drug laws were originally created to discriminate against certain groups of less fortunate people) then all the drug laws would still be wrong.

Should it be against the law for someone to eat 10 McDonald's cheeseburgers everyday because they will become that would be unhealthy and will cause that person to become obese? Of course not! It is not the government's job to tell anyone how to live their lives. Laws are meant to protect your liberty, not restrict it! All laws essentially limit your liberty and freedoms in some way, by restricting certain behaviors that directly hurts other people. For example you do not have the right to kill anyone, or steal or rape or any other malicious devious actions. These are laws based on the harm principle, and it is the government's job to legislate and enforce such laws, this is essential for any functioning society. But not all situations are as clear-cut as murder and robbery, for example speed limits. You do not have the right to drive 100 mph on public roads, because it is likely that you will hit another car and hurt someone. Now DWI laws complicate things even more, because drinking and driving has killed so many innocent bystanders, that it is statistically likely that you COULD hurt someone else drinking and drinking. It is a bit of a gray area, because there is nothing intrinsically wrong with drinking and driving, and lots of people do it anyways and never end up hurting anyone. But because it could hurt others, and it has killed before, the only fair and safe thing to do is ban it all together. Now the question is how do you punish violators? I will be discussing the justice system, the industrial for-profit prison complex system, and the real world effects of criminalizing and incarcerating non-violent crimes in great detail later. One last example of a paternal laws that do work (laws that do not violate the harm principle but are still good for you whether you like it or not) are seat-belt laws. Click it or ticket is the police moto in NY. It really only takes 1 second to put the seatbelt on, and in the rare chance of an accident, your survival rate go up dramaticly. And wearing a seatbelt is not that intrusive into your life. So in the example of seat belt laws, the good greatly out-weights the negative, and these laws do actually save lives. This is exactly what government lawmakers are supposed to do. It only took 50 plus years after the invention of cars before seat belt laws came into effect, but it is better late then never. So finally, if drug laws really were created for your own good, which they're not, who the fuck are you to tell me what I can and can't do to myself? But that is not the real problem with drug laws. The real problem is the ecomonics of black markets. If there is a demand, someone will fill it, illegally and under the table. It understand how and why prohibiting doesn't work, take a good long look at Prohibition in the 1920s and the mob. Worst, underground drugs are not regualted, making street drugs all kinds of various unknown dangers. If you ask me, I think it is GOD-DAMN irresponsible of the Federal Government not to allow the FDA regulate all consumable commodities. In economics, a commodity is the generic term for any marketable item produced to satisfy wants or needs. And legal or not, people do drugs for all kinds of reasons, some are good, some aren't, and as the failure of the war on drugs has proven, prohibiting and outlawing doesn't make the problem go away, it just makes it worse. There are lots of people who use drugs responsibly and for those who get addicted, and there will always be some, they need compassionate treatment, not to be made into a criminal!

Anyways, moving on. Over the past 10 years, I learned more and more about ADD. I discovered that it's isn't so much a disorder per se, but ADD could be viewed as a wonderful gift instead a burden. I have a hyper-active brain. I have an ultra high capacity for learning vast amounts of material. This actually makes my father, uncle and myself highly intelligent people. The only problem with this hyperactive brain is that is very difficult to learn to control and focus, and to slow down or to shut off at the end of the day. Hence the tremendous, perhaps overwhelming appeal and temporary relief that alcohol and marijuana bring. And without the healthy, productive stimulate medication (un-accessible because of ridiculously strict NYS Drug Laws), meanwhile all the beer and liquor you can drink is right around the corner. The the final outcome for folks like me almost seems inevitable. For me, it was an awful lot of unnecessarily suffering, but overall it was bearable, because at least I would still get my Ritalin eventually, and for all of my fuck-ups, I do ultimately take responsibility for myself. I had to make those mistakes to learn all that I know now. But for the poor unfortunate souls who will be forever damned in history as weak, moral-less drunks and criminals, who's fault is all their own... they never knew any better. Unless of course they discover cocaine or god-forbid crack, in which case they might as well be damned forever. Ritalin is to diet coke as cocaine is to regular coke-a-cola.

And so it was around this time that I began to really understand the world, the truth about the arbitrary legality of drugs and the nature of our government. If I happen to have grown up in the 1920s, alcohol would have been illegal, then what? Perhaps the world would be a better place without drugs and acohol, but that just isn't reality. Or had I grown up 20 years from now, when DWI laws are made obsolete because Google Cars, uses Google Maps to drive your car for you, then I never would have gone to jail. Anyways, it was also around this time that I finally settled on sociology as my major, because it really encompassed everything that excited me and that I wanted to learn about. I began writing about my ideas of liberty and drug laws. I wrote a really great paper call "My Concerta with the Law" (Concerta is the name-brand for long acting time-released Ritalin) where I argued that I should be entitled to a lifetime prescription of Ritalin, pointing out the difficult nature of my life without it. My blissful ignorance of the world was shattered by my learning of the world's social inequality and injustices committed by selfish power hogs. My own's government's stupid bureaucratic ignorant resistance to change and progress. Hell it was only less than a century ago that black people and women were given the same rights as white men. Yeah, the state's supreme wisdom that I assumed it must have turned out to be completely non-existent. And to make matters worse, the truth behind all the drug laws are racist in their very nature. Marijuana laws for example were first created to discriminate and deport Mexicans and to dominate and oppress black people. There was no underlining moral reasons that I had just assumed I didn't know. The truth as it turned out, didn't even make sense! And to top all this off, I began to realize the truth behind September 11. I had whole-heartily believe the official government story as truth, only to find it out is was so completely faluse, this shattered my understanding of the concept of truth and my blind faith in my government. I love President Obama, I think he is an intelligent genuine politatian. I wondered why he hasn't done anything about marijuana laws. I recently found out why he hasn't done for to help, and the reason is so incredibly fucking stupid, but it makes perfect sense. The reason is because then policially, he would be "the black guy who legalized dope". I can't even begin to fathom how fucking stupid this is. I don't see him and think of him as a black guy, because that not how I see and judge people. But I understand how a lot of other people would see it as that way. So what is Obama's official stance of pot? "We have bigger fish to fry then cannabis users". At least that makes some sense. Hopefully before he leaves office, he will help fix the bogus federal marijuana laws...

Most intelligent people who discover they have some disorder, ailment or disease usually end up becoming somewhat of an expert on that one problem. In an effort to defeat whatever ails them, most people try to learn as much as they can about their problem. For me, I eagerly sough all knowledge and information I could find about ADD, Ritalin, addiction, and recovery, among many other scientific topics. And I am always learning more everyday. I recently learned about why I didn't have nearly as much trouble concentrating and focusing on subjects that greatly interested me was because excited and aroused, the body naturally produces adrenaline, nature's natural stimulant. Now, as a sociologist, I can honestly say that I have the wisdom and experience to know right from wrong, and courage and compassion to adamantly do something about it. This is what real sociologist do with their career, not just some small time social work or social study, but real understand of the truth, and then applying that to the real world. They derive strength from knowing the truth, and they actively strive to contribution to positive change. Real sociologist rock governments and cause revolutions (Marx). I love my country dearly, and it is because I care that I am willing to work as hard as I can do be part of the progress in the right direction.

And so after graduating from an enlightening five years of college, I set into the world to see if I could make a difference. I ended up joining the United States Marine Corp for any reasons, primarily to learn about the Federal Government from the inside. But also because it fit with what I wanted at the time. Not people don't realize that the military is actually an excellient example of pure modern day socialism. Individual enlist and complete their given government job, in exchange for food, clothing, shelter, full healthcare and a decent bi-monthly paycheck. Now is that isn't socialism, then I don't know what is. I found that to be very appealing about the military, that and the Marines sounds like the hardest and most challenging. Plus I wanted to go to war, I wanted to truly challenge myself in life or death. I wanted to see the middle eastern world first hand, and I wanted to be part of the ending of the awful Iraq and Afghanistan wars. And I thought that a military history would look good and benefit my political career someday. In the end, joining the Marine Corps turned out the be one of the very best decisions I ever made. I learn and experienced so much, and I am tremendously lucky to have made it home alive, un-traumatized and with all my fingers and toes. I was also ready to finally give Ritalin a break. I was going to see if I grew out of my neurological disorder and hopefully didn't need to take medicine anymore. I am sad so say that I struggled needlessly though 13 weeks of boot-camp 4 weeks of Marine Combat Training, 10 weeks at my MOS school and 9 long months in Afghanistan. If only I was allowed to take me medicine, oh how I much more I would have excelled. It was still an tremendous experience none-the-less. I forsee the day when the military forces soldiers to use performing enhancing drugs.

Now I joined the military after getting a college degree, and a degree being the only requirement to be an Officer instead of enlisting. Sadly, for me and my country, the other requirement was to either never have done any kind of drugs in your life, or to completely lie about it. I took the honest approach saying yeah I smoked weed in college. Little did I know, this barred me completely of ever becoming an Officer. All my fellow marines agree, I would have made a great officer. Shame on you Marine Corps and federal government, again your outdated ass-backwards laws doing more harm than good.

Wikipedia Reference used in the Autobio of dwcoon

Friday, December 28, 2012

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FORWARD December 2012 (original, now old forward)

Welcome to School friend, student or fellow musician, and thank you for taking the time to read this music book.
The concept behind Music In Color is the resulting combination of years of me learning and playing music, writing and researching knowledge, learning how to use computers and utilize the internet and, of course me always being a self determined entrepreneur.
So without future ado, I am proud to introduction to you the 1^st Edition of the new book: My Music In Color BEGINNER PIANO SCHOOL: Theory Book & Color My Sheet Music Collection. Publishing for the first time all original sheet music arrangements, and the innovative My Music In Color Sight-Reading System & techniques, tips and advice from the pros and lots more. Plus the new beginner school is scheduled to open full time in the Spring of 2013.

The general idea behind “your” Music in Color is simple. If you love classical piano music and you've always wanted to learn to play the piano, then this is the right book and school for you. The Beginner Piano School (BPS) teaches classical piano performance using innovation new technology, all rooted in classical music theory. Utilizing the best of modern information technology, computers, online resources, you can get the be info straight from the pros themselves! Now is the best time to make your dream of playing piano a reality. Music In Color BPS's curriculum is the accumulation of the best piano teaching and learning information in the world!! With my decade of experience as a classical musician (classical guitar, bowed contalie, viola and recorded) I know music, and what works. Plus I grew up in the newly created computer generation and internet age of the nineties, making me who I am today. (plus I'm bit of a book worm, geek, computer guru, sociologist/scientist (Bachelors of Arts SUNY Albany '02) and US Marine Afghanistan Veteran). I have collected the newest and best that's out there, and made lessons that work. These innovative learning techniques are easy and fun. I hope you enjoy this collection the best material I have found in all of my days as a musician and scholar, And believe me, some of this stuff is really cutting edge. Now is better then ever to learn anything! Take advantage of this wonderful opportunity. Take a piano lesson and find out for your self, first lesson is always free. Enroll in the School, and Learn to Play the Piano. Become the classical pianist you've always wanted to be.

NEW STUDENTS: DO YOU WANT TO LEARN TO PLAY PIANO?

What I love about classical music is the beautiful sound, that and the coherent mathematical beauty that's is the core of music theory, that and of course the satisfaction , excitement and challenge of actually playing piano by sight-reading classical sheet music that was written by the likes of Beethoven and Mozart. I remember when I first started playing piano 3 years ago, not being able to play a single C Major Chord, I fondly dreamed of the day I could wow audiences during spontaneous live performances whenever I happened to come across a little Baby Grand Piano or electric keyboard. The BSP will guide all newcomers in an excellent, welcoming weekly lesson program and practice routine that will have you playing your favorite songs in a matter of weeks. First Grade instills new students with a basic understanding of music theory, and how to play piano by sight-reading. All the experts agree that music theory is the fundamental foundation in ALL more advanced types of music. Casual lessons also available. Whether you enroll in the School or take a few single lessons, you will be amazed and happy with your decision to learn to play piano. All prices are suggested and charged on a sliding scale. Pay what you can. However this is what I want to do for a living right now, so your generosity is greatly appreciated. Thank You so much.

THE ART OF SIGHT-READING CLASSICAL SHEET MUSIC IN COLOR

I love how eloquent and articulate classical sheet music “describes” the intricacies of sound of music. The beauty of the simplicity of the black and white music notes on the ten lines of the Grand Staff. All music can be completely translated into easy to sight-read sheet music (with lots of practice & understanding of music theory ;) composed solely of whole, half, quarter and sixteenth notes, and with some rests, accidentals, dynamics and articulation notation thrown in here and there. Piano sheet music also features key and times signatures, chords and arpeggios, finger numbers, slurs, ties, sharps, flats, crescendos, diminuendos, dotted notes and pedal marks. Not to mention with this written sheet music, we won't have any of the great sonatas of the Classical Era, this simple notations on paper immortalized the classical music icons like Ludwig van Beethoven and Wolfgang A Mozart..... See the Classical Music History and Inspirations Page.

ADDING YOUR OWN ARTISIC COLOR TOUCH TO HELP YOU LEARN

…..And all of that in good old fashioned black and white ink and paper. We don't what to try to change anything about the unadulterated classic form of sheet music. This “My Music in Color” Book in your hand is currently black and white. You add the touch of color. Use color accentuate and emphasize the music. Make your own personalized color code system. Something that makes sense to you. I like to color in the tails of some pieces lines blue and spaces red, for example. Or some pieces I like to color all C notes red, and all G# Green and B flats Orange. It is completely up to you. Just highlight segments, or the rhythms phrases or whatever makes you happy, and assists you in sight-reading faster and more effectively then ever before. Be sure to enter the school contest for best Colored Sheet Music.

All Sheet Music in this book, in addition to Music In Color concept, lesson plans and HW are all one hundred percent Original My Music In Color Piano School Arrangements, published under the Creative Commons copyright and composed by your first classical piano music teacher September – Dec 2012.. All other material shared from other musicians and website sources are fully credited and referenced.

“Hello and welcome friends and fellow musicians to the official opening of My Music in Color BEGINNER PIANO SCHOOL.

I teach beginner classical piano lessons at extremely affordable costs and or for free. I do it out of love. music and because I love teaching and I am a natural patient teacher. I will be your music teacher and guide throughout your whole music career, from now and for the foreseeable future. I know how hard it is to find a great paino teach, as I have had many teachers myself over the years. If you have the desire & will and half an hour a week commitment, then together we will make it happen. Be the Pianist you are meant to be!
Thank you for being my Beginner Piano Student. And always remember the following three things: “

 “I love playing piano” (say out loud everyday)  G-B-D-F & F-A-C-E (memorize)  “See you next week!” (Commit to weekly lessons)

Sincerely with love, your piano teacher, David

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Music Theory's BFF warmly and proudly introduces new musicians to meet the Circle of Fifths.
Why is is important to learn the Circle of Fifths? Because it is a great visualization that will help you understand theory and identify classical music key signature, find related keys & harmonies, remember the order of sharps & flats. The Circle of 5ths is one of the most valuable tools to help you ee the fundamental relationships that music theory is based on.
Moving clockwise, each fifth (five whole steps) starts a new Major or minor key signature.
Moving clockwise each fifth add a sharp or takes away a flat. Likewise moving counter clockwise adds a flat or removes a sharp. At the bottom of the circle are the three pairs of enharmonic keys of D flat & C#, G flat & f# and finally B & C flat. And to top it off all of the Major keys are on the outside with the minor keys on the inside. First grade only focuses on C Major and G Major, adding D &F Major in second grade. Just google “Circle of fifths” to see the endless variations of this music theory treasure. Check out www.circle-of-fifths.net for tons more great insight into this classical music gem.

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The First Month (4 weeks) in the Beginner Piano School: What to expect.

Main concepts for new students learning to play classical piano: 1^st Grade learning objectives: 3

①Gain a general understand sheet music notation,  Begin to understand music theory 1^st Grade Level.  Play Piano Live (by sight-reading or by ear, but Piano Performance is the ultimate goal.) (I admit, Music Theory is the hard boring part, but I promise it is all worth it by 2^nd Grade, you will be so thankful.)

Learn, study and review and understand these five topics is the core of 1^st Grade here the BPS. Understand these key principles by any means necessary. 30 minute individual weekly lessons, regular concentrated “focused” practice sessions, keeping a music journal and watching YouTube videos is the right start. You be be amazed and pleased with your progress in less than a few months. You skill level will greatly improve as a result, and you will graduate to Level 2. Good luck ;)

1) Key Signature of C Major & G Major & Circle of Fifths
2) Major Scales - Whole Steps, Half Steps, W W H W W W H

3) Intervals – Steps (2nds) Line to a Space, Space to a Line
Skips (3rds) Line to a Line, Space to a Space

4) Sharp and Flat Notes
5)Musical Note Duration Whole Notes, Half Notes, Quarter Notes

Beginner Piano School (BPS) Terminology

Grade: PSH- Practice Study Hours, divided into quarters (four 15 minute sessions in 1 practice study hour)

Average: TCPSH- Total Cumulative Practice Study Hours (see spreadsheet)

Record earned PSH: mblog- music web log, records progress or in your learning journal.

PSH includes: ALL HOURS MUST BE RECORDED IN MBLOG TO GET CREDIT!

Lessons and Live Performances (minimum 30min/wk)
Individual focused practice sessions, journaled time earns PSH (30 mins -1 hour each week)
YouTube “how to” piano tutorials on current subject matter + listening to your favorite classical pieces.
This is the easy way to earn PSH, record composer + Song, + other details to earn credit hours just for listening to your favorites classical masterpieces and on reverent subject matter.
“Music: Free Inprove Time or Theory Book” Time, (any piano sheet music) includes homework and reading,
learning from piano websites about any classical music subject matter.
Coloring in Your own artistic and practical Music in Color and entering the School Contest.
Every students grades each other artistic musical creations.

First Month of Beginner Piano School Schedule

With one 30 Minute 1-on-1 piano lesson each week, plus this practice schedule

1^st Week	□ 2-3 Scheduled Practice sessions 15 minutes each, watch 10 minutes of Piano Learning YouTube Videos □ Complete HW# 1 record PSH in your music journal or mblog or video diary
2^nd Wk	□ Practice 2-3 sessions of 15 minutes each, listen to 10 minutes of your favorite piano songs on YouTube Videos, □ Complete 1 HW and record notes & PSH in your mblog music journal
3^rd Wk	□ 2 Scheduled “audio recorded” 15 Minute PSH, Listen to 20 minutes of your favorite classical composer on YouTube, □ □ Review, memorize and quiz your self on the Circle of Fifths C Major, G Major, D Major, F Major □ Complete HW and record notes & PSH in your mblog music journal
4^th Wk	□ 30 min + 2 sessions of 15 min each, 30 minutes of YouTube Videos □ Play your first Live Piano Performance to friends or family or someone close to you □ Sightread five or more songs, audio record performance for teacher review □ and record notes & PSH in your mblog music journal

The first 4 scales you must Learn, Study, Memorize and Master

Practice each 7 note scale with Left Hand + Right Hand using correct finger numbers

C Major, G Major, (F♯) D Major (F♯, C♯) F Major (B flat)PSH Student Hour Report (Total PSH earned) 1st Wk 2nd Wk 3rdWk 4thWk

“Action is the real measure of intelligence”

-Napoleon Hill This means practice piano...

“Whether you think you can,
or you think you can't, you're right”
-Henry Ford…this means think you are the next Beethoven

You are what You THINK about most of the time... ...so think positive.

"I Love playing the Piano"

"I am getting very good at playing the Piano"

Say out loud everyday

Beginner to Virtuoso Piano Program

How to use your Color Pencils, Personalize your classical music

Use Color as an aid to help you sight read sheet music

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Example: Color in all D notes Red, E notes Yellow and F notes Green or spaces Red and lines Blue

Your own dash of color eccentrics the natural elegance of classical music

5 Colors ♪ Orange ♪ ♪ ♪
♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Green ♫♫♫♫♫ ♫♫♫♫ Yellow ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♫♫♫♫ Red ♫♫♫ ♫♫♫♫ Blue ♫♫

Modern Era Piano Influences, Living Virtuosos and Collaborators-

The “Modern” period in America and the Western world music is from 1950s and forward.

Albert Frantz of Key-Notes.com Average 1 Hour Private Lesson Price ~$500/hr
A supervirtuoso... an excellent musician able to inspire music from pianist of all ages. A Professional Concert Pianist, & Online Piano Teacher. Author of “Efficient Piano Practice: 10 Expert Tips”
Awarded “Most Helpful Online Piano Tips” 2012 by MyMusic In Color BPS.
Howard Richman of SoundFeelings.com & Sound Feeling Publishing Avg 1 hr private lesson ~$100/hr.
Howard Richman is a Professional Pianist, Composer, Private Teacher and author of “Advice for Pianists: Piano Lesson Myths” & the classic book Super Sight-Reading Secrets (1975).
Highly influenced My Sight-Reading Secrets concept. Howard's sight-reading techniques have been Awarded “Best Online Piano Learning Lessons” 2012 by MyMusic In Color BPS.

Miss Jessica Jenks of happykeyspianoschool.blogspot.com Avg 1 hr Private In your home lesson ~$60/hr.
Happy Keys Piano School Founder & Teacher. Jessica is an accomplished performing classical pianist & composer/songwriter. She was the best piano teacher I've ever had. Students who graduate from the BPS, may have the opportunity to moving to Happy Keys Piano School for advanced lessons Grade 5 and Up. Miss Jessica teaches in private in home lessons (by referral only) in Upstate NY. She also plays Live House-Shows $300 per gig. Enjoy up to 4 hours of live classical performance for weddings, house parties or any special event.

Classical Era-The Classical period in Western music between about 1750 and 1820.
Classical Music Legends of the Piano Romance Era  v9o74

Johann Sebastian Bach
Born March 1685 -
Died July 1750 at 65 Years Old

♪ History reveres Bach as one of the greatest
master of musical expressiveness who ever
existed. And for 45 years, Bach created,
composed and conducted music of the highest
quality. No man, it is said has ever composed so
brilliantly and consistently as J.S. Bach.

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Born January 27, 1756 –
Died December 5, 1791 at 35 Years Old

♪ Mozart was a prolific and influential composer
of the Classical era. Mozart developed a brilliance
and maturity of style of classical music that
encompassed the light and graceful along with the
dark and passionate.
He composed over 600 works, many acknowledged
as pinnacles of symphonic, concertante, chamber,
operatic, and choral music.
He is among the most enduringly popular of classical composers, and his influence on subsequent Western art music is profound;
Beethoven composed his own early works in the shadow of Mozart. Painting used is of Mozart at Age 6, Austria 1762.

Ludwig van Beethoven
Born December 17, 1770 –
Died March 26, 1827at 57 Years Old

♪ Beethoven was a German composer and pianist.
A crucial figure in the transition between the Classical
and Romantic eras in Western art music, he remains
one of the most famous and influential of all
composers.
Beethoven's hearing began to deteriorate significantly
in is early 30s, yet he continued to compose, conduct,
and perform even after becoming completely deaf.

Famous Masterpieces include:
Ode to Joy 5th Symphony, Für Elise,
and some of the best piano sonatas, including: Waldstein, Appassionata and "Moonlight" Sonata.
Painting used is Beethoven Age 50, Germany 1820.

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